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How can you ask me to drive, when I can't see out the windows?

By Mollie Bennett

Imagine yourself driving down the road with thick mud all over every window of your car. Not able to see a single thing much less know what is happening. Would you feel fear? Anxiety? Panic? Could you hurt yourself or someone else? Would you feel anger at even being in this situation?

What happens when life falls down around you? What happens when you cannot see what to do or where to go? In this situation it may seem obvious to pull over, but society dictates that we continue to move. So many around us would argue that things are murky at best and just to trust in the roads and navigation given by others. Perhaps they will suggest you focus on a financial goal. You will obviously find happiness if you have money in the bank? Just keep going towards that, even if you don't enjoy the ride.

I suppose the question is, can you? How long can we drive without being able to see? How long can we follow other people's navigation? If we are meant to choose our own way and don't pull over, will the car break down? Once the car breaks down and we find our lives crumbling around us do we blame society or ourselves? The argument can certainly be made to blame others yet, can we truly believe that we had been honoring ourselves? Have we been listening? Can you see clearly out of your own windows?

Now that the car has broken down, what do we do? Society would suggest that you get out and get another car, maybe a smaller dirtier version but that's what you can afford right? You need to make money, contribute. You may be alone, scared and lost but you need to keep moving don't you? You're too old or too inexperienced to learn something new? You don't have the financial backing to lay around and take care of, or learn about yourself. The truth is you may be so worried about moving forward that you don't even see this breakdown as a gift. You don't even see that the car breaking down has forced a stop. Before this moment you didn't even notice the mud on your windows. You didn't know that you couldn't see where you were going. You thought you did. You knew you were on the right track. You knew you were heading to happiness, to love and to fulfillment. The most intriguing part of all of this is, you weren't. You were never meant to live the life society planned out for you. You were never meant to live in the beautiful cage of a good life. You were always meant for more.

You had to see that you were driving down the road. You were not listening to yourself, not your true self. You were happy but you never realized that life should be ecstasy. Now as you sit there mourning your old life and the car you had become accustomed to. Step out onto your road. Look out over the edge and see the majestic mountains and the sparkling sea. The sun is beginning to rise on a new chapter. The question is, are you willing to walk your own path or are you going to get back in the car?